Work and play

We've been pretty busy lately trying to sort out our working sitation and I finally feel like where getting somewhere...

I love the feeling when the pieces of the puzzle comes together! It's been a struggle, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel - at last. If things go as planned next week, then we both could end working with jobs that we actually want to do...

Beacuse that is surely what life is about? Well, an aspect of at least. I'd like to think that work should reflect you and your character. That it should make you happy and proud.
I want to be able to say to my son that I'm doing something that I love and that I'm passionate about.

For me, it can't just be a job, it's who I am. It may sound like a cliche, but it's the truth.
I would not feel fulfilled and happy unless I was doing something I truly loved.

On another note, I've a relationship with my phone.

I know. It's ridiculous.

Apart from all the fun apps, the thing I love the most is that I can stay in touch with work all the time.
That is, however, also where the relationship borders on unhealthy.
There is a reason why people say you should be able to unwind and detach yourself but having an Iphone makes it impossible.

I'm sure, like with any new relationship this will eventually dwindle and the fire will sooner or later stop raging, but for now - it's definintely a passionate relationship.

Besides, if I do get this job then my iPhone is going to be my trusty ally so better keep feeding that fire...

Juggling things

My son is amazing. He was sat in the car all afternoon as I was taking T around the area to do leaflet drops. I didn't want to do it, but we have to get more kids to sign up to our school - so have no choice. Bless him, he was a bit upset at time and had enough at around four but we had managed to target most schools by then.

We'll have to do some more leafleting tomorrow, fingers crossed that they provide some interest!

It was B's birthday yesterday so his mum, stepdad and Granny came over and we all had a curry and watched the football. (Unfortunately Liverpool lost - darn!). It was lovely but by eleven thirthy we were both absolutely knackared! We had planned to watch a film but I think we'll have to wait until the weekend.

Actually - I think we all need a holiday. We're both so, so stressed and it's really taking its toll. I just hope that it'll all get sorted. We're meant to start on the 30th... Eeek!

I'm finding it hard to juggle everything at the moment. Looking after a baby is a full time job in itself and then having to sort stuff on the side is hard work. Mind you, if I intend to work from home I need to learn how to manage. B's having a mare at work too - so that's not helping.

It can only getbetter from here though right?

Working week over!

Phew! That was my first week at work over - Thank God!

It hasn't been that hard really, but it is tricky to get your head around being back on the tube, suited and booted, and sitting in front of a computer all day. I hated commuting before and I still do although there's a vital and significant difference - I can read a book. Undisturbed!?

Thankfully, my colleauges are lovely so time passed quickly but unfortunatley they seem to think that I know exactly what to do!

I understand now why people tend to start tentatively, as it's a total shock to the system! I couldn't remember a thing and had to go over all the database shortcodes, passwords, keys, finance stuff etc.. I guess I'll get there eventually, but it'll take time.
Now anyone who knows me that I'm not a patient person so I tend to beat myself up if I "don't get it" straight away... Suppose I need to learn just to breathe and take a step back.

I've been thinking a lot about how I've changed actually. Especially how Jackson has contributed to these changes. He has learned me respect and I think I'm more patient and together person now... Maybe it's motherhood in general, I don't know, but either way - it's a positive change!

It's a strange feeling to suddenly be back in the "old me". I like that person, but as I've changed it feels rather as if I'm looking from the outside - in.

But God - how I miss him when I'm away....

Work

So, I'm back at work again. I went back last Friday and although I had a nice day all in all, the novelty has definitely worn off and now I can't stand it.

There are lost of changes and I can't remember how to do anything so I suppose that has something to do with it. I feel completely out of it and I don't like it. I would prefer to feel like I was in charge of things, that I knew what was going on. I guess because you have to be so switched on as a mum, that this "lull" stage just really annoys me.

Mind you - this is only day two so maybe I'm asking too much of myself. I'm not a patient person really. I like things to be done quickly and efficiently. I don't like all this faff!

Anyhooo... My dear mother is over helping me look after Jackson and so far it's going really well. She loves spending time with him and he absolutely LOVES his mormor - it's so funny!

I'm off tomorrow and Wednesday so hopefully the weather will stay dry so we can go to the park. Er... What am I saying?! This is England remember - it always rains!