The good old moving house business is rapidly approaching and I can honestly say that I'm NOT looking forward to it. On the contrary - I would like to buy a ticket to Thailand, lie on a beach and wait for everything to magically sort itself out.... Yeah. Like that's going to happen!
The actual move isn't the problem - we've got it covered and have so many people helping us - but it's the moving in that's worrying me. See, this is the first time I've bought a house and suddenly there are tons of issues to sort out. Our new flat has carpets, something which I hate with a passion, so these need to come out. In order for us to do that, we need to plan to go in beforehand and assess the situation and planning is not something that comes easily to my dear boyfriend.
Love him to bits, but he's more of a "moment - to - moment kinda guy" and I'm more of a planner.
Nevertheless, I'm sure we'll get somewhere soon. At least I hope so. My poor mother (who is an EXTREME planner), is stressing and keeps repeating that I: "must have nerves of steel" and "tons of patience"... This, however, is driving me mad too as I'm trying to mediate and reassure her.
On top of all this I'm trying to do my job (and it's been hard to adjust back to a working life!) and I'm trying to be a mum, and furthermore - we're trying to open a brand new drama school in January 2010.
I must be a sadomasachist.
Tuesday 13 October 2009
Saturday 10 October 2009
Working week over!
Phew! That was my first week at work over - Thank God!
It hasn't been that hard really, but it is tricky to get your head around being back on the tube, suited and booted, and sitting in front of a computer all day. I hated commuting before and I still do although there's a vital and significant difference - I can read a book. Undisturbed!?
Thankfully, my colleauges are lovely so time passed quickly but unfortunatley they seem to think that I know exactly what to do!
I understand now why people tend to start tentatively, as it's a total shock to the system! I couldn't remember a thing and had to go over all the database shortcodes, passwords, keys, finance stuff etc.. I guess I'll get there eventually, but it'll take time.
Now anyone who knows me that I'm not a patient person so I tend to beat myself up if I "don't get it" straight away... Suppose I need to learn just to breathe and take a step back.
I've been thinking a lot about how I've changed actually. Especially how Jackson has contributed to these changes. He has learned me respect and I think I'm more patient and together person now... Maybe it's motherhood in general, I don't know, but either way - it's a positive change!
It's a strange feeling to suddenly be back in the "old me". I like that person, but as I've changed it feels rather as if I'm looking from the outside - in.
But God - how I miss him when I'm away....
It hasn't been that hard really, but it is tricky to get your head around being back on the tube, suited and booted, and sitting in front of a computer all day. I hated commuting before and I still do although there's a vital and significant difference - I can read a book. Undisturbed!?
Thankfully, my colleauges are lovely so time passed quickly but unfortunatley they seem to think that I know exactly what to do!
I understand now why people tend to start tentatively, as it's a total shock to the system! I couldn't remember a thing and had to go over all the database shortcodes, passwords, keys, finance stuff etc.. I guess I'll get there eventually, but it'll take time.
Now anyone who knows me that I'm not a patient person so I tend to beat myself up if I "don't get it" straight away... Suppose I need to learn just to breathe and take a step back.
I've been thinking a lot about how I've changed actually. Especially how Jackson has contributed to these changes. He has learned me respect and I think I'm more patient and together person now... Maybe it's motherhood in general, I don't know, but either way - it's a positive change!
It's a strange feeling to suddenly be back in the "old me". I like that person, but as I've changed it feels rather as if I'm looking from the outside - in.
But God - how I miss him when I'm away....
Monday 5 October 2009
Work
So, I'm back at work again. I went back last Friday and although I had a nice day all in all, the novelty has definitely worn off and now I can't stand it.
There are lost of changes and I can't remember how to do anything so I suppose that has something to do with it. I feel completely out of it and I don't like it. I would prefer to feel like I was in charge of things, that I knew what was going on. I guess because you have to be so switched on as a mum, that this "lull" stage just really annoys me.
Mind you - this is only day two so maybe I'm asking too much of myself. I'm not a patient person really. I like things to be done quickly and efficiently. I don't like all this faff!
Anyhooo... My dear mother is over helping me look after Jackson and so far it's going really well. She loves spending time with him and he absolutely LOVES his mormor - it's so funny!
I'm off tomorrow and Wednesday so hopefully the weather will stay dry so we can go to the park. Er... What am I saying?! This is England remember - it always rains!
There are lost of changes and I can't remember how to do anything so I suppose that has something to do with it. I feel completely out of it and I don't like it. I would prefer to feel like I was in charge of things, that I knew what was going on. I guess because you have to be so switched on as a mum, that this "lull" stage just really annoys me.
Mind you - this is only day two so maybe I'm asking too much of myself. I'm not a patient person really. I like things to be done quickly and efficiently. I don't like all this faff!
Anyhooo... My dear mother is over helping me look after Jackson and so far it's going really well. She loves spending time with him and he absolutely LOVES his mormor - it's so funny!
I'm off tomorrow and Wednesday so hopefully the weather will stay dry so we can go to the park. Er... What am I saying?! This is England remember - it always rains!
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